The Mark(ings) of Zorro
"As democracy is perfected, the office of president represents, more and more closely, the inner soul of the people. On some great and glorious day the plain folks of the land will reach their heart's desire at last and the White House will be adorned by a downright moron."
H.L. Mencken
 
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And finally, here are a few books I might recommend for your edification and amazement.


 
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Friday, November 22, 2002

by El Zorro Viejo (aka; Jim)

Lather
by Grace Slick
 
Lather was thirty years old today. They took away all of his toys.
His mother sent newspaper clippings to him about his old friends who'd stopped being boys.
There was Harwitz E. Green, just turned thirty-three. His leather chair waits at the bank, and Seargent Dow Jones,
Twenty-seven years old, commanding his very own tank.
But Lather still finds it a nice thing to do to lie about nude in the sand,
Drawing pictures of mountains that look like bumps and thrashing the air with his hands.
But wait! Ol' Lather's productive, you know. He produces the finest of sound,
Putting drumsticks on either side of his nose, snorting the best licks in town.
But that's all over.
Lather was thirty years old today, and lather came foam from his tongue.
He looked at me eyes wide and plainly said, "Is it true that I'm no longer young?"
And the children call him famous, but the old men call him sane.
And sometimes he's so nameless, that he hardly knows which game to play, which words to say.
And I should have told him, "No, you're not old," and I should have let him go on . . . smiling . . . babywide.
 
At 10:21pm on 11/21, thirty years ago, my daughter was born. My other daughter was born 11/2 thirty-one years ago, but I didn't know her then. I didn't get to meet my oldest daughter until I started dating her mom. I have three kids, all adults now and all truly exceptional people. I only got to go through the whole birth experience with my middle daughter, but they are all my children. Today (OK, technically yesterday but I'm still awake so I consider it today...), however, is my middle daughter's day, so I'll get sentimental about her.
 
Sometimes I can go for most of a day without realizing that I'm pretty much an old man now. I know, one's fifties aren't really old, yet they are. In my mind's eye, I am still somewhere between 18 and 26. Those were the years when virtually all the doors, all the possibilities were still open to me. I could have done just about anything in those days. My body and my mind were young and strong, and decades and decades of time stretched out infront of me. Now, my body is no longer so reliable and my mind is cluttered with the baggage and detrius of all those decades of time. Instead of decades of active life ahead of me, I face maybe 15 years or so of maintaining the status quo (a task that will take more and more effort each year), and then an inexorable decline as the biological machine simply begins to wear out.
 
On my 30th birthday, I played the Jefferson Airplane's "Lather" over and over while I altered my state of consciousness (mostly with beer, if memory is to be trusted). Since then, I find that I don't do well on my decade anniversaries. What is truly scary is that I am beginning to react in a similar fashion to the decade anniversaries of my children's births. I find that a number of the people I know have no desire to live much more than the biblical three score and ten years. Personally, I would like to have ten or so fifty year "lifetimes" so that I could do all those things that I thought I might like to explore when I was 21. I would like to be a writer and a teacher and a politician and a warrior and a builder and a scientist and an entrepreneur and...and...well, you get the idea. The thing is that I would like to give each of those vocations my full attention for a significant (more than 20 years) length of time. So, I mark the passing of decades with a certain sadness. Maybe it's foolish of me, but, still...


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